But, With the little science knowledge that I have, my brain refuses to believe the fact that this whole system -universe as we call it, is creation of some person called God because such an act is beyond any laws that have been mentioned in physics. Ok so here comes science-doesn’t-know-it-all argument. I can’t counter that possibly. Fine, agreed on that.
So let’s assume once upon a fictitious time, there was a person called God who had unearthed laws of physics which no one since has managed to discover and decided that he wants to create something which will have animals, plants, water, air, sky, human beings, birds, rivers and other godly stuff. Let us just assume bhai. This guy had the imagination to visualize it all when none of this existed (I know this sounds super cool and I also know I sound super nerd calling this cool). But even then he won’t have created it. He simply would have chosen not to create it. Because let’s face it- it’s too much of a pain in the ass to create something this complicated- so what if you are even competent and sufficiently jobless to do that. But again let’s assume he did it. So how’d have he done it… it’d be fun to imagine.
I suppose God suspended a few balls of some weird substances in null in a concentric circles around one big ball and was having fun playing with the arrangement (analogous to Small boys playing with GI Joe, making them do weird stuff and enjoying their imagination). But after some time, just as the case is with boys that they get bored with one GI Joe and start finding a girl friend for one, he got bored with this game and thought to himself let’s do something cool man and set the ball in center on fire!! “That was wicked” he must have thought to himself. But again as is bound to happen, he got bored with this too. Then he started kicking each of the balls out of sheer boredom and they started revolving around the fire ball in center. As he was kicking it around, God got bored. He thought what the hell… all the balls are rotating in same plane its boring so he kicked the outmost ball in some different trajectory. And this is how the solar system was created.
But when I think of it seriously, I find God no more than a concept. A concept which us humans, confused because we developed that extra Grey matter which other creatures couldn’t, went on to invent. There are a lot of things even now which science has not discovered or is in the process to discover. I like to believe when the ancient man couldn’t find an explanation to anything or couldn’t help or control something (like rains or floods or draught say) he just credited it to God’s account. Because the thought that there are a few things on which he doesn’t have control on was overwhelming for him. He felt insecure. So he created a proxy account by the name of God which was credited with everything Good and Bad.
Good- probably because he was too modest to admit that he did it all by himself (say profit in business) or simply so that he can have someone to blame in bad times.
Bad- Because he didn’t want to feel insecure that anything could happen by chance.
A lot of things were attributed to god- earthquakes, lightening, Fire, Rainfall, good crop and even kids. But as society progressed and evolved it discovered the actual reasons behind this. Similarly even now there are things which we attribute to god and later we’ll discover how silly we were like now feel when we think once earth was supposed to be flat.
For everything else there is entropy which is ever increasing by its nature. When randomness has this ever increasing tendency, anything can happen. Why do we need a God?
But then again I am not an atheist. Because I find it hard to reject a something that everyone around me believes in, with the wave of my hand.
I go to temples or pray sometimes only because my father asks me to.
But I find it hard to believe in this concept because it is the same person, my father taught me science. He taught me to reason and to ask questions (I might as well add that he never taught me to question the superiority of almighty, just in case he reads this. But, dude, I’m just extrapolating your theory of questioning, to the specific case of God).
Maybe Agnostic is the term coined for me typically. But then as I see what am I writing about? God? Something I’m not even sure what’s my opinion on?
Maybe I should get back to doing what I do the best- Getting on streets of Lucknow and admiring what ‘God’ has created
PS: If you are into spirituality, comments are welcome to ‘guide’ me but don’t talk grey! Let the conversation remain black and white. I hate it when those dreamy spiritual guys make it vague and say stuff like “God is that water which will quench your thirst of peace which you have been unable to find within”. I could kick u in the groin dammit!!
PPS: @mani ji- this thing was actually drafted as a comment on your article:P